7 weeks left until the last week of school.

I thought it would be too depressing to count up all the days… 7 is a nice, crisp number. I cannot wait until it’s 7 days. Ugh, I can barely get through this week. It’s Tuesday and I’ve already got this damn throbbing headache. I haven’t touched math or chemistry and even if I said “fuck it” and slept, I’d still only have 5 hours of sleep.

ANYWAYS, on with the premise! (Premise makes this all sound like it will be adventurous and movie-like… which it most definitely friggin will. I promise you happiness in approximately 500-700 words a day.)

If you’re here you probably know… but for anyone just totally uninformed, I applied for YFU summer exchange Japan 2008 [w/ Scholarship] late last year. There was paperwork drama with all that, which is nothing I want to think or type about, ugh. So, fast-forward to April, the month acceptance/rejection letters are being sent out.

My experience went like…: Tralalala~ Liz Ma gettin the mail~, GAHHH WHAT IS THIS SQUISHY PACKAGE, should-I-open-it-ohhgod–AHHH!!!, …sfhhhsshhhfggggahhhhh… (tearing noises), “Congratulations YOU are ACCEPTED”, …..YAAAAAY! Yes, exactly like that. On April 3, 2008, my front yard.

So now I’m struggling through my last 9 weeks–and currently getting totally fucking slaughtered. Everyone is like “OMG riz ma you so smart, you GPA soo highhhuhhh! You must be genius or somefin! *am I right or AM I RIGHT?*” but seriously, I just had 30 minutes worth of work ethic and the material was much easier than the class names feigned. I don’t know what the HELL is up with this semester, my brain is on lockdown. I DO give a shit, and yet I feel hopeless. My head spins when I try to read anything remotely difficult. All I want to do is study Japanese. Reading a chemistry chapter is ten thousand times harder than reading a Japanese book to me.

I feel so fucking DONE. GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE.

Oh yeah, premise of blog. Right. Basically:

• I’m going to be in Japan for 7 weeks this summer (June 11 -> July 24). Should be exciting for me, which I hope is transitively exciting for everyone back in the states. Pics and videos, I promise.
• I’m going to California and a wedding shortly afterwards. Pictures and stories most definitely.
• Afterwards my Junior year begins. You won’t hear about it because I’ll be drowning in work.
• BUT, THE BLOG WILL LIVE. I’m planning to go to France for 7 weeks next summer (also exchange). I’ll have finished AP French 5 by then, so I don’t even have to study. Very unstressful!
  Ultimately– more adventures of a stupid foreign girl in far far country for all.
• School is killing me. Killing me. Killing me. Killing me. I’m surprised no one has stopped to tell me “DON’T GO TOWARDS THE LIGHT!!” Hah. Hah. *wheezes, coughs blood*

I need to study a lot of grammar points and kanji before Japan… I know enough to barely survive, I want to know enough to really immerse myself. So that’s what’s up for April/May. I don’t know my family/location yet. TOKYO plox~

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Update: It’s 4 AM. I got through one page (front side only) of chemistry-note-review. HAHAHA WHY AM I SUCH A FAILURE? I don’t want to be in this situation. I need to leave the country (extreme avoidance tendencies much… -__-)!

Too bad that doesn’t happen until after finals. I’m fucked. And I’m fucked in the way that I just want to whine on the internet about it instead of sleeping my stupid 2 hours. DIE CHEMISTRY DIE DIE DIE.

Update #2 (4/17/2008): I knew I wanted to make extra cash for the trip somehow (although honestly my parents will probably give me a lot as well), but it really just hit me. Like just yesterday I was digging through every cabinet in the house for change (I found a lot, lol). I think I’m just trying to do menial tasks to quench my excitement…excitement which has come 7 weeks too early and needs to shut up so I can study for school X_X.
Anyways, besides that, I’m also eating stuff I bring from home before 4th period every day–to save the $2.00 I’m supposed to spend on lunch every day. My parents would be pissed off if they knew because 1) We’re not dirt-poor. 2) They really want me to eat well. 3) We’re not poor! XD.

It’s just that my dad already paid the $2000 scholarship contribution. So the change gathering and “I’m not going to spend a cent on anything before I leave” thing is mostly to ease my own guilt. I have a TON of things I need to buy even BEFORE I leave… a new summer wardrobe, for one thing. I’m gonna need $500 at least, just for new headphones… new camera battery… etc. etc. It doesn’t help that I feel like a complete shithead whenever they give me more than $20 at once.

Anyways, that’s my weird money thing concerning the trip.