little things
I couldn’t find my glasses this morning and I couldn’t be late, so I had to spend my day semi-blind. I do this a lot in America, too (except it’s usually that I didn’t even remember my glasses at all), so it wasn’t anything new.
However, in America, everyone would just note ‘hey, where are you glasses?’ or ‘you look different…’ It really just reasserted my belief that I look like shit without them. Someone once told me that I look better with my glasses on because there’s too much empty space on my face LOL (I’ve been addicted to my glasses ever since; they had a point)
But today, I got showered with so much リズ美人！ (YOU’RE A BEAUTY) that I want to go out and buy contacts LOL. Seriously, Japan is very flattery, but the intensity of everyone’s YOU’RE SO CUTE/PRETTY/SEXY(lol what?) assaults made it feel very sincere. The 2nd cutest guy my class even randomly walked up and said 今日リズ色っぽい。。。！(today Liz is sexy/hot/attractive/very pretty (it’s a dangerously broad term lol)) LMFAO I would be more uncomfortable but he’s a really funny nice person so I know he’s not being insincere or disgusting. Needless to say I am somewhat over my naked-face-hate.
I spend time shopping around every day after school and I’m so surprised that it’s usually fruitless! I find a lot of things I like but nothing I love. So I end up saying ‘ehh… I could live without it’ to everything x_x;;;. Just felt like mentioning it.
Exactly 2 weeks lefffffttttttt T~T. Suddenly time is moving way too fast. It’s 2 weeks but I feel kind of strained each day, with the thought of going home constantly silently stretching at my insides and making me queasy. I’m excited to see my family and friends and everything, but I’m afraid of ending this time off. I don’t know if I’m ready to return to normal life yet. I feel like I haven’t learned enough yet and I definitely feel that I have not regained the resolve and determination to last another school year. I don’t want to come home and feel as if I was pulled away from something half-way. I need more time to dwell here and really let a renewal soak in so I can survive another year doing shit and pretending it matters.
Maybe now you’ll believe me when I say that you look fantastic with or without glasses. e_e My g d it. You’re going to come back as such a cocky asshole because everyone in Japan is inflating your self-esteem, lmao. Just jk of course. I wouldn’t have expected them to be so forward, though. Since they’ve got a rep of being shy and stuff.
Oh my gawd, yesterday at Whole Foods, they had FRESH BAKED VEGAN SUGAR COOKIES. I bought/ate 3 and they were sooo gooooood. D: I’m going to pick up more and make you (“make you” sounds forced) try some.
I know what you mean about not feeling prepared to endure another year. By this time of summer, I’m usually bored and motivated to have something, anything, to do. Ehh, not so much this year. But if you want to feel like you’ve completed your Japan stay, just focus on how monotonous all of the excitement, new friends, flattery, delicious food, freedom, and Yamapi doctor are. You’ll realize how boring it is pretty soon maybe.
If it helps, I’m certainly ready for you to return.
Fishers misses yooooou~ D’:
Oh, and I drove on the Interstate the other day! :O
70 mph fast and furious.
Yay I’m so glad you had a pleasant glasses-less experience
I always said you were just as beautiful without them as you are with. Oh! I just watched Sixteen Candles the other night and there’s this asian guy named “Long Duck Dong” and he’s always popping out of nowhere and saying shit like “hello sexy girlfriend” and “what’s happenin hot stuff” to random girls. That’s completely unrelated but your story reminded me of that.
Awww I’m sorry you’re sad about coming home. I hope the next two weeks allow you to get the full sense of accomplishment you want from Japan.
And we really do miss you… there’s stuff I can only really talk to you about and I wish you were here so we could discuss it but you’re not so I just have to talk to myself about it and it’s not going so well because I never get a new perspective and and and… I’m dying inside without you, Lizzard.
Anyway all that’s not important. Have fun in your remaining time and take lots of pictures so you can remember everything!
Rabu rabu <333333
I LOVE YOUR GUYSES LETTERS XD
and if you guys weren’t in America I’d totally never come back!
;_;
I’m in school right nowww so I should probably go but yes thanks for lovely comments!! <3
i used to get those comments all the time about not wearing glasses (i wore glasses from kindergarten to 7th grade LOL), but when i just felt like stopping for good people think i look weird with them now. but yeah. you’re hot with or without lol
You should try not wearing glasses more often. You look great either way though. I’m glad people are complimenting you on it.
Try not to think of the dwindling time, instead make the most of it. You’ll only regret what you didn’t do, or I suppose what you didn’t make time for. But either way I know you can handle another year of schoolwork. I get that feeling sometimes too, but you’re getting that much closer to going somewhere where you’ll get to study what truly interests you. And that will matter. =)